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A tribute to Oprah

I got the news about MJ's permanent departure five minutes after I woke up and thought I was still in a dream. Unfortunately I wasn't. The first thing that came to mind was, 'No more Last London Concert??!!~' I personally think it would have been a great show, since he publicly announced it is the last great one. But sigh.

I suppose the whole world is weeping for him, and it would only do justice for me to at least speak of the other people who happened to dismiss themselves on the same day with him. Perhaps they will feel better and remembered and not clouded out by the obituaries and flowers and news headlines of MJ all over the world. So, to all of you visiting heaven ahead of me (yesterday), hope you have a wonderful time with God.

Apart from that, as the title showed, this is nonetheless a tribute to Oprah. To me, if Micheal Jackson's burial has a hundred mourners, Oprah deserves a thousand. And since she is still very much alive and kicking (the last I check CNN it was still only MJ), let me just write this to hail Oprah as the saying goes, 'When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile.' So here we go, Long Live Oprah!!

Somebody said, and I quote, "As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back."

10 things I want

List 10 things that you want for your birthday, doesn't matter whether the things that you want is possible or impossible to get. (This is a little bit late as birthday just went like 3 weeks ago.)

1. A new laptop which works super fast with cool graphics (whatever brand, preferably Mac)
2. A new PC which works super fast with cool graphics
3. Lamborghini (Black)
4. A house overlooking Swan River Perth
5. Lifetime membership badminton courts all over
6. A nice place to jog in Butterworth
7. Somebody cool smart nice handsome who blows me away with pianoing skills
8. Auto-ironed clothes
9. Vertical growth pills
10. Working in UNESCO or the any Reserve/World Bank

People that I tag: Felicita, Alyssa, Joanne, Suyin (Orders of name do not indicate preference)

Happy tagging (I did that in less than 10 minutes KAKAKA)

一个阶段

我是真的回来了吗? 还以为是梦.

既然跑了, 干嘛还回来啊?

跑了很多次了, 每次都是回来.

干嘛还回来呢??

你说自己的命该自己做主.

但现在觉得自己真的是个大傻瓜, 还这么能够做个好主呢?

很想把一切都忘掉, 过去的自己真的太天真了, 还以为世界上有天长地久.

又想要跑了, 但是要跑去那?

The battle to move on

In every war, there must be an enemy. And this time even though the allies are doing better, the end is no where in sight. The war I fight is a war of internal exposure, and I am lucky to have a good comrade. Her name is C (note: this is not an obituary).

Sometimes we talk about the most private things, but we have not yet touched upon the thing closest to my heart. I still cannot make head and tails of C. Is she superficial, or is the shyness holding her back; even with me?

It is utterly impossible to build my life around her in the foundation of chaos and uncertainty. I see my life being transformed into a wilderness. I feel the suffering and yet when I look up at the sky I somehow feel that everything will change for the better.

I have learnt from her, that we are all ordinary people. But even an ordinary secretary, or an ordinary housewife, or an adolescent can within their own small ways turn on a small light in a dark room. We are all against something at some point in life so I better make up my mind, she told me. Somehow she is perhaps the only one who can see me, who can see who I really am even when I am unsure myself.

Everybody seems to think we should be happy because we are young. But they don't see the war we have to fight each day.

However I know one day my war will end.

And I will not die.

Sequal of the return

After two hours of electronic procrastination of trying to change my blog template, I gave up.

If some of you have not known, I am now back at the place where I was born. The last I checked my bank account has got less than RM500 and AUD500. Following that I realised I actually do not have enough to stay at the hotel while I am back for a month. So I have decided out of no financial options that I would move back to Little Maks.

The neighbourhood dog is not pleased but it is my family home and I AM entitled to live here. He told me yesterday, that at 23 entitlement no longer come to play. Then I pointed out to him that under the Malaysian Law, there is no statute of limitation when it comes to returning home to stay. He could not bear the sight of sharing the crowds' attention upon my return and walked away mumbling 'sniffblooo.' I decided not to tolerate his unwelcoming behavior.

So here I am again, in my old bedroom. Older, wiser and living the joy of sleeping on the old bed among my dusty collection of books. Once I had finished unpacking my possessions I was staggered at how little clothes I have. After that I went down to make myself a cold drink and as a drop of sweat was about to crucially drop, I saw the dog walking over to me with the newspaper as peace-offering.

I said 'No.'

He left head hanged, permanently exhausted.

KA-KA-KA.

Back for the moment

Greetings.
I.......Penang.....awhile.
Going to stop blogging.............for the moment.
Brought a lot of books.............have to read all.
If not.......waste energy.
Anybody free to meet...........just call.........same number.
Happy to be back...........air smells different here.........polluted.
Not very hot yet...........thank god..........it's raining.
Home looks different............even more ching-chong.............last I remember.........I like.
Gotta mop floor now...........remember call.........dinner lunch breakfast........
12/7 phone on.
See you when I see you.
Meanwhile, take care.

An adage

1. Last night, thought about things so hard that could literally feel the pain in the head.

2. Thought so much about what had happened until I felt asleep without realising.

3. Woke up first thing in the morning and started thinking again.

4. Went in to the gent's toilet mistakenly just now. (Of course if it's not mistakenly I would not have deliberately went in)

5. Decided that if the hill cannot be moved I will build a road around it.

6. Decided that if the road has a dead end I will change my path.

7. Decided that if the path leads to no where I will change my mind.

8. Gotta move on.