Nothing nice to say

It has been quite awhile since I last wrote something here. Sorry for the delay but do expect some sporadic disappearance for the coming weeks as some things have gone overboard, and some things are just laying there in need of critical attention (not very sexily laying I must say).

Maybe I will tell you about it, maybe I won't.

When I went home last weekend, I found grandma on the bed with the slightest strength and energy anyone could have. It was a horrible surprise to begin with, because no one prepared me for any of such conditions; but as I touched her warm hands she did respond with a soft look. At least that was a reassurance itself. M said she had consulted 3 doctors and they had confirmed nothing is wrong with her- which is particularly weird as she is obviously very sick. Alas we found a persistent urge to consult a different doctor (the one at the temple), and he told us to perhaps prepare for the worst while at the mean time try to pray and offer meals to the people of another dimensions (if you get what I mean).

It has been the longest weekend I've ever had. Made longer with the constant worrying about grandma's condition and the possibility that it may worsen when I'm back again next week. It is frustrating and helpless when you feel like the solution you have is probably worse than the problem itself.

Then again, don't need for any consolation now. Grandma and I are doing just fine.

At the mean time, do enjoy the song that I've put up. Just felt a sudden need to listen to it. A good composition nonetheless. Exactly the song to listen to when life is reduced to nothing but empty dreams. Sing along.


Jika mimpi masa silam
Bisa kusimpan dalam kaca
Jadi perhiasan
Pasti aku abadikan
Zaman riang kanak-kanak
Pabila hujan mengundang
Suasana bahagia
Dalam hidup yang seindah
Mimpi yang tidak pernah
Melukakan perasaan...

Tapi kini bila dewasa
Aku mula sedar betapa mimpi
Hanyalah suatu permainan
Jiwa insan dalam kesepian

Jika mimpi cinta kita
Bisa kuzahirkan
Jadi lukisan yang menarik
Pasti aku sentosakan
Malam pesta bila engkau
Lafazkan janji dan memelukku
Sepanjang tarian
Hingga pipi aku terasa
Basah dalam tangisan
Yang penuh kesyukuran...



Untuk mimpi yang tidak pernah melukakan perasaan,
Cheers and all the best for finals.