It ends tonight

I sat for my last paper today. Economics. Most of the multiple choice questions almost made me fell off my chair and the essays were brute. Not that I didn’t study for it, I did. But how the heck does domestic interest rate affect exchange rates and currency level in a free economic country??!

Alright, enough fretting about bygones. Discussing about past events would only bring about belated concerns now.

Though it was crucial, I must add.

Nonetheless, I will enjoy my holidays as of tomorrow and read all the books that I’ve been craving for, pretend to be Vivaldi for the next couple of days, or Beethoven for that matter, strum the guitar like I actually know what I’m doing, wait for my supply of tree hill season 4, billboard top 100, simcity 4, etc. etc. etc. I guess I’ve had all my days scheduled until the next semester starts. Needless to say, lying on the floor looking at the fan spinning is also in my winter activities’ list.

Anyone who is free for a burgundy maybe, or champagne? Three cheers for a sweet revenge 

Just before I end this post, to G, it must have been a hell of a week for you. I suppose you will persevere and not dwell in impious stubbornness or unmanly grief. I know it is hurtful, but bear in mind that you are not in pain. It may be anguish, but you are not in pain. It would be most incorrect of you, should you remain a heart unfortified, a mind impatient, an understanding simple and unjustified. For what we know must be, will be. A fault against the dead is absurd. It is the most vulgar thing to sense, why should we in our most vulnerable position, take it so much to heart? You still have many people alongside you. The least favorable, but at least, I am still here for you.

Let it go a little by little, because death’s universal understanding would be comic if it weren’t so sad. I feel your grief, and know that it is not a choice for us to refuse to live under the conditions of our birth, nor to resent so impatiently the misfortunes that are most certainly inevitable. To recall in mind that what has happened is not something new, should already make the weeping less. Remember that when we abandon grief’s trouble to maintain renewal of our own presence, when we decide to move on when we are ready, it doesn’t mean we forget the life that was, because, the immortality of a soul will always remain.

Peace.